Haloed Devil

In loving Memory of Hanna Lee D. Cargo-Andaya (HLDCA) I call her  angel, not because she was called DJ Angel back when she was working as a student jock for campus radio. I call her angel, not because her email ID is angellee. I call her angel because she had the face of an angel that brightens every gloomy day. She made me laugh every time. She made me smile every time I felt down. I call her angel, for her voice was so soothing that cherubs and seraphs would envy her. I call her angel because she was sent to me from heaven after my desperate and futile attempts to find true happiness. I call her angel, because she was my soul mate, my friend, my critic, my nemesis, my best friend and my wife.. I call her baby, yet i could have called her sweetheart, honey, sugar, or what ever terms of endearment i can come up with. I call her baby, because i wanted to treat her like one. To spoil her, to give everything she wanted, to give her my unconditional love. I call her my love for

Taking off from Andrew Shepard's speech in the American President... I have loved three women in my life... two I lost to better men, one I lost tragically.      " It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all "  To love someone is remarkable, to be loved in return is truly wonderful, a marvel to behold. Loving someone gives me the true meaning of happiness, it gave me joy. Being loved is a bliss.I have loved three women in my life. One I lost because I never really fought for her. The other one I lost because i held her too tight. The third... let's just say " She was forcibly taken away from me". The first was "puppy" love as my friends would call it. Infatuation blown out of proportion. I was young, naive, careless and stupid. I enjoyed the company of my friends, my classmates, my teammates and even my playmates. I was in the basketball court, swimming pool, at a friend's house, in school most of the time. I ne

How will I spend Valentine's Day? I answered: Alone Love is in the air. Couples seem sweeter. Restaurants filled up. Yep. No more reservations. Fully booked. Roses seem to abound as well. Flowers are everywhere. Happy Heart's Day. Happy Valentine's Day. What ever people may call it, this truly is the season of love. Wouldn't it be wonderful to spend this day with your love one, your inspiration, your honey, your sweetheart? Have that dinner by the candle light. Take that leisurely walk together. Watch your favorite movie together. Sit by the seashore and watch the sun go down. Lie down on the fields while you both count the stars. You both close your eyes as you wish on a shooting star. Dream about the future together.  Cuddle up while mentioning sweet nothings. Now the key word here is "couple". But how is it when you are just alone. Alone by chance, alone by choice. What about those people that don't have someone in their lives right now.  Being

How do you go back when you've been pushed too far away? How do you pretend that things are fine even if they are not? How do you say I'm sorry when any apology you give is not enough? How do you smile when there is no reason to? How do you stop the tears from falling knowing you were the reason for the heartache? You hide behind this glass of alcohol to hide the pain... You hind behind a simple smile to hide the sorrow... You hide behind your friends and sing the night away thinking that everything is fine. You keep things to yourself because you know that the words that come out of your mouth is something that hurt people. You embody the principle " less talk.. less mistake". You put up a face of strength and confidence knowing that you can't sleep at night. You laugh boisterously and with reckless abandon thinking that people would think you don't care. You know deep down in your heart you are hurting.. What people see are different from what actu

I am happy... because i thought about you. You brought meaning in my life. You were the greatest gift God has given me. You showed me a different perspective of the things I saw, you made me look at things differently. You inculcated in me that a glass is never half empty but always half full.  I am happy because you were able to teach me to look beyond anyone's imperfections by looking beyond mine. You made me realize that having you around things are always perfect. I am happy because with you around I can be myself, no pretensions. I am sad... because I hurt you. I made you cry. I never said sorry enough. I am sad because I argued at every chance I get. I am sad because I caused you pain. I am sad because I am so insensitive to every tear that fell from your eyes. I am sad because i am so naive that I believed everything is fine despite the arguments, the disagreements, despite the crying. I am sad because I was too stupid that everything was still a joke..  I am sad and tears

Every February we can not help but be romantic, be sentimental, be emotional.. This is the love month.. the month where one sees the color red almost everywhere, where one sees heart shaped decors in almost every window, where one hopes that cupid would shoot his arrow to that man or woman they truly desire. This is the month where one suddenly sings out love songs at the top of his voice without minding those people around him. This is the month where one looks out the window and hopes that his prince Charming would come and sweep her off her feet. This is the month where couples enjoy romantic dinners at places truly memorable and inspiring. For some, this is the month where they can take time off to walk aimlessly on the beach, holding hands while watching the sun sets. This is the month that guys would often go out of their way just to impress the one they love. Be it flowers, be it chocolates or be it an engagement or wedding ring.. Like I always say ":this is the per

by Martin Nievera Travelling down the road Passing the signs that used to be I remember you and me The road that leads me home Is it too far for me to find The days we left behind Then the day you left me It took me by surprise Do you really love me Still see it in your eyes (But) you never said goodbye You never heard my cry The day you lefr my side 'Coz you never said goodbye I live my life alone Wondering what went wrong You're trapped inside my mind You never said goodbye May be I was wrong To think that we could ever be Was it enough for you and me We could have it all It's not too late to realize The way we feel inside Then the day you left me Took me by surprise I know you really love me I can see it when you cry