Haloed Devil

Half past 3 still I am not sleepy. Half past 3 when everything is silent. Everything is dark. Peaches is sleeping comfortably on my bed. Well as for me. I am still wide awake. I reflect on what has happened the past few days… hmm the past two months… One thing is for certain, I stopped smoking. Again.. maybe this time.. I won’t be going back, this time I think I am really sure. I shall reflect on this note whenever  I have that urge to smoke again. 3.35 am still nothing.. Tried counting some sheeps, horses, bears, cows, planes, fighter jets, motrocycles, f1 cars and still nothing. 3.45 am still nothing.. Am I overthinking again ? Am I bothered with what I learned? Am I too affected with what’s been said? I stare at the ceiling hoping to find answers… 3.50 am Peaches is having dog dreams.. Peaches is barking softly. Running in her dreams, she might be. Sleep? Still nothing… 3.52 am I closed my eyes. Hoping it would be you that I dream of. Ho

I closed my eyes and... everything seemed so quiet... everything seemed so peaceful... nothing to think of... nothing to worry about... I closed my eyes and... i was alone... i can hear myself breath... i can hear my heartbeat... i was calm... I closed my eyes and... i can pretend i am someone else.. i am somewhere else... i am safe... i closed my eyes and... i wished you were there... i hoped that it was your voice that i'd hear... i prayed that it will be you that i will see... i closed my eyes and.. Nothing... It is you I wish I'd see when I open my eyes. It is you I'd look for. It is your voice I'd want to hear. It is you hand I would want to hold. It is you who I want so say "Everything will be fine. Everything will be ok." Then everything will be better...

I have never been this angry in my life.. I was so angry because I was accused of something I did not do.. I would understand how and why people would take advantage of me. I know that people bleed me dry. As long as they can get something out of me, they'll just do it. Bleed me dry, in fact. I've always been nice to people, I've always been good. People are nice to me as well.. that was what I thought. So here we go again.. I've sacrificed, given everything I had and when it came to the point that I can give nothing more... I got insulted, I was even accused of being someone I am not.. " I will not believe anything you say anymore.. "  as you've said. Answer me this... Was it I that talked endlessly to this person every night behind your back? Was it I that engaged in pervert conversations right in front of your face pretending that I don't understand what this person is talking about? Was it I who get to see this so called friend of mi

Famous Quotes from Angry in Dye. "Tell me who your friends are...  and I'll make you realize who my friends are..." " Don't bite the hand that feeds you" " Sorry.. I didn't live up to your expectations." " At least I know where I stand.." 

It was 2011 when i first saw you. You walked into a restaurant, well probably because you were hungry. i noticed the shirt. I have one like that. I knew we were connected. A year passed before I saw you again. Hardly noticed me. Same here, i don't know you in fact. Yet a tingling sensation made me realize that there is more to it than this. Soon after, you needed my help. I was hesitant at first but I was later convinced that it's time for the Kawawang Kuting Program. I call it guilt management, my friends call it charity. My kutings call it blessings from above, Divine Intervention, as they sometimes refer to it. I forgot the reason why i stopped the Kawawang Kuting Program, and there you were... making my life miserable, making my life sad making me think about a lot of things making me hate life itself using, abusing me yet all were ok why? all because you no longer are the kawawang kuting.. but then again. i may be wrong.. Haloed Devil 

you said you've moved on.. you said it was over.. yet you still have not gotten over.. Haloed Devil