Haloed Devil

Today was truly a remarkable day for me.. I was able to get reacquainted with my first love... baking... It was not only a refresher course for making a dough.. and decorating a cake.. i got to learn new bread variations as well. It was truly amazing how our two instructors were able to cope with the demand of their bakeshop considering they were only two (one was in charge of bread making, the other cake preparations) and the fact that their kitchen was too limited to operate as a bakeshop kitchen.. They had four chillers - two on top of the other two, a stove, a holding area, two counter tops, an overly used mixer and an old fashioned oven - a very old convection oven, all cramped up in a very small space. A far cry from pastry kitchens I saw back in school, back in my practicum days, and even those times i'd get the chance to bake a cake... Call me naive or whatever, but these guys only had the essentials to run a bakery kitchen. They made do with whatever they had and ...

A friend of mine sent me a picture and asked me what i think about the guy next to her. Yes her.. I immediately opened the attachment like a curious cat trying to figure out what was inside the can. Trying to interpret a picture?? this was something new... The email attachment was a picture of them seated beside each other. I've seen this guy somewhere.. Ahh yes... among the other pictures she had sent me before.. he was her friend. I have not met this guy yet but the feeling was just strange. I asked her "Is he your boyfriend?". She replied by saying NO! it was a big Fat N O - NO!! "He is just a good friend of mine" she vehemently denies. I replied by saying "Do you have feelings for him?". She answered back by saying "Lessons in life learned from you... Never fall in love with a friend". She was quite touchy with the matter.. "Please don't put color or meaning in our friendship.." she requested. One thing I remember m...

I hate the feeling of being alone.. well i think a lot of people hate being alone also.. I hate the feeling of not in control.. it just drives me crazy, but I'm not a control freak. I hate being sick.. i feel alone and i feel i am not in control.. I hate over bearing people.. i am probably one so same poles repel each other.. I hate the feeling of being like a wall paper, a flower vase, a carpet, a doormat.  Lastly I hate it when people lie.. white or what ever, I just don't like it... Dubai's Haloed Devil

"Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel. Sometimes we just have to go with... What ever happens.. happens.. and they happen for a reason" 

I am ruthless, I am vicious, and I am cold hearted. I am vindictive. You have pushed my back against the wall and there is nowhere else for me to go. Now it's time for me to push back... I do this not because i want to, i push because I must. I tried to reason out, but you leave me no choice. I am afraid that is why I am angry. I am angry and now i realized that I am suffering. Now it is time for you to feel my suffering, time for you to feel my wrath. I am Dubai's Haloed Devil and I am calculating. Be wary, for you do not know what I am capable of doing. I will break your spirit, I will make you fall. My move will be perfect. Everything will be planned, everything is calculated. or i can just ignore you and make you disappear in my life..

It just seems strange that no matter how tired I am i just can't sleep these past few days. Went home past 2.00 this morning, took a shower and checked my mails. I lied down and continued on this Quantum Mechanics reading hoping that I'd be lulled to sleep. Well, guess your right.. SLEEP - FAIL.. I played music on my laptop to soothe my restless soul, i closed my eyes and guess what i was singing to every music that played. When it got to the music of Gregorian.. i had goosebumps. I opened my eyes and realized it was half past six in the morning.. Well no sleep for me.. Insomnia??? or just another case of depression??

When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all uphill When the funds are low and the debts are high, When you want to smile, but you have to sigh, If care is pressing you down a bit -- Rest if you must, but don't quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns, As every one of us sometimes learns, And many a fellow turns about When he might have won had he stuck it out. So don't give up though the pace seems slow -- You may succeed with another blow. Often the goal is nearer than It seems to a fair and faltering man, Often the struggler has given up When he might have captured the victor's cup, And he learned too late when night came down, How close he was to the golden crown. Success is failure turned inside out -- A silver tint of the clouds of doubt, And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems afar, So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit, -- It's when things seem w...